I’m getting scared again. At the beginning of pretty much every semester I get scared out of my mind that I’m not making the right choices, or that I’m going to fail. Like how I want to get an Art Education Degree and teach high school art classes. I’ve finally gotten really excited about doing that, and I mean really really excited, I’ve been thinking about the kids I would talk to and teach and just be able to reach out to, all while teaching them how to express themselves. And then last night, I was up thinking..which for any one who is artistically inclined, is a bad idea. And I guess its kinda bad for anyone really. But I was thinking and I got convinced that I wasn’t going to be able to pass my art classes and I was going to fail at art…b/c I wouldn’t be able to execute proper value and perspective in my art. Those are my two weakest points in art, and I just can’t grasp how to put them on paper or a canvas…and then I remembered how silly this is because regardless of how well I do those two things I still love art and have a passion for it. And besides…I prefer 3-D stuff anyways…sculptures enamor me.

So this is some insight into my head at 3 in the morning…and I didn’t even get to the God issues I came up with.

But I’m not going to scare easy this time. I’m not going to sabotage myself this semester. I’m going to succeed! Because no matter where I end up, I’m only going to get there by moving forward.