Here He Struggles: Archive

A song for the broken

So, I worshiped for the first time in a while tonight. A rather long while actually. It’s part of my relationship with God that I have dearly missed. Relationship…that’s an interesting word. It is a word that I use a great deal in my own version of christianese…maybe Shackish, like Turkish? (if someone knows of a better way to conjugate Shack into a language, let me know...

Sep 20th

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Jul 25th

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Dec 27th

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Dec 14th

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what if, without limit to time, space, or money,...

it would be a picture with me and all my family, friends from high school, my church, and the friends I’ve worked with. but set in my favorite place in Hawai’i, diamond head. Ask me anything

Dec 14th

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Shut up woman get on my horse.

I feel like I SHOULD know who this is…but i’m kinda spacing out right now Ask me anything

Oct 18th

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Art.

I just had the compulsion to draw for the first time in a very very long time. I regularly feel the need to produce art of some kind, but that’s just my creative side of me getting antsy. This was a little more intense than that. I, of course, couldn’t find any of my stuff….b/c I’ve been basically artistically barren due to my lack of confidence in my art, so it was a...

Jul 28th

so...

It feels like I can’t sleep anymore. I feel like I can’t trust myself to make good decisions and the right choice anymore. I cant decide if I’m going to become a person that I love or hate. My relationships with God is basically God pursuing me constantly and fiercely and me running as fast as I can in pursuit of Him half of the time and the other half I’m refusing to even...

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When did you know you wanted to be an art...

I’ve always thought about teaching, pretty much since I was in middle school. But what really got me thinking about Art Ed was a class at tech. I took this art appreciation class and we watched a video on 21st century artist. I saw all of these artist living their lives in their studios. And it hit me in class one day that I would never be happy unless i was doing the same. I really needed...

May 30th

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what gives you the guts to use this forum for...

haha, honestly i have no clue. It just seemed like fun at the time and i am an advocate of blunt honesty anytime. It’s actually kind of a rush to be challenged to answer any question completely honestly. Ask me anything

May 30th

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May 27th

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What are you most confident about in yourself, and...

I’m confident in my ability to persevere, I’m someone who can pretty much get through anything by gritting my teeth and pushing forward. Its how I got through most of my growing up honestlty. I’m not confident in my ability to achieve things. I can get through most anything, that doens’t mean that I’ll do it right or achieve the goals I set out to reach. I’m...

May 24th

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its not spam. its a link to a movie you should...

oh, well then i’m sorry because the movie is no longer there… is there another place i can watch it? or can you just tell me the name so i can search it on my own? Ask me anything

May 22nd

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http://www.novamov.com/video/80185a2e2455f

So maybe this is spam, regardless the video is no longer there. sorry :( Ask me anything

May 21st

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I need a little help

Okay, so I’m battling a little bit of depression right now. And by a little bit I mean a decent amount. I’m a little out of love to be honest. And I need your prayers. I having such a hard time seeing Joy, and realizing the Joy in Love, or really even the Purpose in Love. My faith is shaking under the weight of a million questions. Questions that I don’t think I’m going to...

May 11th

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Formspring

Q: are you still going straight for god? bahahaha A”Going Straight” is an interesting term..and not really something that I believe I can do. But I am still working on dying to myself to become alive in Christ. I’m not perfect and it doesn’t always work out the way I’d like it too, but I’m still trying. ;) I believe what God has asked of me is more important...

Apr 23rd

And all the people Glorified The Lord.

Okay, So you know in the old testament, and in the new testament too, there are passages that either the old prophets or Jesus or the apostles would do miracles and it follows with “and all the people who saw this gave glory to The Lord, God.” or some variation of that? That’s what Holiness is for, and that is why I want it as a tattoo…or rather the word...

Mar 20th

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year three

Three years ago today (or round abouts), I heard God clearly for the first time. And by hear, I mean I just knew what He wanted from me in my heart more acutely than ever before. It was like He spoke, or breathed His desires into my heart. And I knew, I knew what He wanted from me more than anything. He wanted me to choose Him. Any time that God desires something of you, it boils down to a...

Mar 14th

TMI I know...

patwright: but dont you hate it when you are running behind and you cant find that last pair of clean underwear you KNOW you just saw. Can I get a witness? In related news, more from the Anna Hodgson set below coming soon. Good good stuff. Witness! Witness!

Feb 20th

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Jan 17th

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Oh, that the ways that you hurt me, that the blows you land, were so physical. I fear I’m running out of metaphorical cheeks.

Jan 14th

Jan 13th

Anger.

My anger is building. I’m just angry all the time right now. I hate it. stupid stupid stupid anger. I just want to not care anymore. I’m tired of caring. Part of me wants to be completely apathetic and part of me wants to be completely compassionate. feelings are lame. actually that’s a lie. Nihilism and apathy are lame. What do you do when you don’t want to be angry...

Jan 11th

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Jan 10th

Forward.

I’m getting scared again. At the beginning of pretty much every semester I get scared out of my mind that I’m not making the right choices, or that I’m going to fail. Like how I want to get an Art Education Degree and teach high school art classes. I’ve finally gotten really excited about doing that, and I mean really really excited, I’ve been thinking about the kids...

Jan 8th

Jan 2nd

Loco

Just spent like 50 bucks on iTunes. Glee Vo. 1&2, Lady Antebellum, Journey, The Who. Oh and I just realized that I own The Blue Print 3 and I am in loooooooove. I don’t know if I’m more jealous of Jay-Z or Beyonce….seirously. Also, D.O.A. is amazing, and Jay-Z says No Homo. Ballin.

Dec 26th

So

Christmas this year was amazing. It was really…i guess you could say quaint? but like, legitimately, not in a condescending way. There weren’t many presents but a lot more family than usual. I loved it. I didn’t feel spoiled or like I wasn’t being grateful enough, and it felt like every one really appreciated everything they got and even more so, really appreciated the...

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Dec 17th

I can honestly

And hurtfully say that I absolutely love you ever bit as much as I did four years ago and ever year in between then and now. I love you in every single way, and it pains me. I don’t know how to ask God to do anything with this love, because my love is sooo complete for you in every way, I don’t know if it can be shifted away from the ways it shouldn’t manifest. And so given...

Dec 17th

Et Tu?

Fact: Sometimes your friends are assholes. Just saying. This is unchangeable. It’s what happens after that fact is established that is important. Do you a) act like an asshole back? b) ignore it and let them walk all over you? c) confront them about it in anger? d) confront them in love? (if this is your answer please explain to me how this happens) e) just blow them off? There are many...

Dec 11th

i have some...

patwright: really talented friends that I’m so proud of. They inspire me. Here’s a few and I’ll try to make a more complete list later. red skobos philllip prescott erich skelton austin crane aaron robertson cigi guz clayton bozard melinda register So i only know four of these people but all of them are amazing!

Dec 8th

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Hey Dad

God, I wonder sometimes how You see me. Do You see me as I see myself? Do You see me as others see me? Or is it in this strange, grand, new light that You see my face? I’m told that You see me as Your son. This is almost laughable. Unless I am in the broken image of Your bleeding and dying son on His cross, how are we even comparable? And maybe that is it, maybe that is how you see me....

Dec 2nd

Dec 1st

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Watch

Here’s the infamous video that consumed my life and Dustin’s for a day. Hope you enjoy!

Nov 30th

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